Reminiscences after writing “Wow, this is post number 150 too” yesterday,
I have been thinking a lot after writing my 150th post on this blog yesterday. Time really flies past all of us if you do not pay attention and make a conscious effort everyday to make the most of it. It was nice reading some of my own previous posts, recalling the feelings and emotions connected to each of them. The problem unfortunately is that I am still thinking that I should have done more. The forever critic inside me always asking for more… Ugh. I think one of the reasons I am struggling lately to update my blog is the fact that I don’t believe it is interesting enough to write about daily. Five months have gone past… and have I done enough? To quote a couple of lines from a song by Sam Ryder – “More” (Listen to it here:)
“… All anyone wants is justMore time, more life, more healingMore love, more us, more feeling, yeahOh, I just need, I’m just needingMore you, more nights for dreamingThese days go by so fast and IOh, I just need, I’m just needing more, …”
I also managed to make good progress on my meditation “homework” today with the help of Emily. Almost done… and now the difficult part begins, keeping up the good work with follow-up meditations and motivation. Why is it so hard to continue to do meditations, even if the effects of it is so profound in my life? Overcoming the habits of my body is so hard. It is really a zoo inside here with all the animals and each having their own personality.
I am spending late nights on my computer as well, worrying and making transport arrangements in connection with the car. Just get it done Phil, stop stalling and get it done. You have just about a month left before you leave on your trip, so get it done.
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10 June 2024
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