I am still not sure if this is a statement or a question to be honest,
I really feel disconnected, like not even my home feels like home to be honest. I don’t know how else to explain this, but I thought I would have “warm and fuzzy” feelings being back here, but I don’t. Not that I am not glad to be back and certainly not because I am not enjoying the comfort… but it feels like it lost its heart. Maybe I was the heart (and soul) of my home? Perhaps I have been on this “journey” for so long that I am truly disconnected from everything and to a certain degree, everyone. Just me and my heart, on the road to (nowhere).
A friend sent me this picture a week or so ago and I cannot help but to love this thing… monster in the picture with this inquisitive expression on “it’s” face holding up his heart with a big smile, the only things he is travelling with. Perhaps the only thing missing is the fact that the other hand is not hitch-hiking, asking for a lift in which ever direction you are going. It feels a little familiar, like this could perhaps be me in the picture. Nothing else but me and my heart and a smile… (since the coke is gone).
On a different note, I started making a list again. I know, no planning, but lots to be done this week, people to see and places to go… wait no, no places to go please.
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4 November 2024
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4 responses to “Disconnected – from my home.”
reading this post – I thought of this song – Welcome Home, Son by Radical Face
I believe we are the heart (and soul) of our homes – wherever that is ..
That little monster is definitely a familiar “face” – I can also see You in that picture and exactly as you described –
You, your heart and a smile is enough and ok for now “-)
Nice song…
“All my nightmares escaped my head”
“Bar the door, please, don’t let then in”
You know the monster all too well Urvi, just trying to keep on smiling.
All in all, you are sounding a little bit discombobulated! 🤓 Maybe have a beer with a friend sometime?
Yes, that word… was the title of this post during the drafting process at a certain point in time.